“I wondered what he knew about the family; what he didn’t know. What family he lived in. My mind wandered around.”
This novel begins with a charming and unique premise. A young girl, Rose, finds that by eating food prepared by others she can taste (experience) the moods and feelings of the food preparers. This has particular relevance when it comes to her mother. As Rose eats the foods her mother has prepared, she at first experiences her mother’s sadness, but later her guilt. Her mother is having an affair, the knowledge of which Rose wishes she did not possess:
“The guilt in the roast beef had been like a vector pointing in one direction. . . . I hated it; the whole thing was like reading her dairy against my will. Many kids, it seemed, would find out that their parents were flawed, messed-up people later in life. . . . I didn’t appreciate getting to know it all so strong and early.”
This discomfort on the part of our protagonist also affects the reader; at least, it affected this reader. Rose has been given a power she does not want to have, and it makes her life messy and unpleasant. At one point, early in this story, she is hospitalized after raving about wanting to get rid of her mouth. If she didn’t have her mouth in her face, she wouldn’t have to eat and wouldn’t have to feel what others are feeling.
“Over the course of several packed days, I’d tasted my mother’s affairs and had (a) conversation with my father. . . . I was not feeling good about any of it. . . .”
Rose has a boring attorney father, a brother who isolates and who is soon departing for college, and an unhappy mother who regularly disappears for a couple of hours of chores—which is when she meets her lover. She lives in a household of people who hardly communicate, people who regularly ask questions that are not answered. This also applies to others in Rose’s life. She asks her Spanish teacher, “How was your weekend?” before her instructor walks off to roam the aisles of the middle school room.
Aimee Bender’s writing style is one that is clipped; words often appear to be missing from sentences, from paragraphs, from pages. Maybe the words are missing because in this imaginary world humans simply don’t understand each other—relatives or strangers—and therefore are not competent about talking, listening, responding. Perhaps the oddest of all things is that this story is not set in an isolated small town (Mayberry, if you will). No, it is set in an earlier day Los Angeles, where mega communication was already the order of the day.
There must be an intended message buried somewhere in this 292-page novel that I missed. After its charming opening pages, Lemon Cake seemed to immediately bog down. It read more like a novella or an overly extended short story than a true novel.
Perhaps I just don’t have the taste for this recipe. The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake left me feeling empty and sad and confused and hungry for something with some heft.